This innocuous book stumbled on my attention in 2005 and it has passed through my hands many times since. I had no inclination to peruse its contents for I had ceased to trust in miracles. In 2005, I was cursing God for abandoning me. I was using all my energy to stave off the hell I descended into 15 years earlier by marrying a man as un-Godly as anyone could be.
In 2007, while packing some books as donations for a book fair, my hand once more fell on “A Course in Miracles “.By this time, I had secured david hoffmeister podcast a divorce from my husband but was still working with the fallout. As I grasped the book, I became very thoughtful and calm. What was it about that book that invoked feelings I hadn’t experienced really long time? My hand clung to the book refusing to place it down. Realizing that this is an indicator that I had better have a closer look, I made a cup of tea and sat in the best reading chair. With great curiosity, I focused on the blue hardcover and read “A Course in Miracles, a basis for inner peace.” Wow. That was a pretty bold statement but okay, I made a decision to bite. Taking a deep breath, I pondered probably the most obvious question: What IS the inspiration for inner peace? This book instantly opened a classic wound and it’d better have the clear answer to healing.
“A Course in Miracles” is truly that, a course. Written in three parts, this book is to not be taken lightly and cannot be read in weekly or perhaps a month. There is text, a workbook for students and an information for teachers. I had the sudden urge to fling the book across the space because I was deeply and profoundly afraid. I instinctively understood that after I began reading this book, I would definitely have to alter and was I ready for the journey ahead?
The best movie is “The Matrix “.The main character Neo is looking for the clear answer to the matrix. He understands the matrix exists but he doesn’t know very well what it is. The man with the clear answer, Morpheus, contacts Neo and offers the opportunity for truth by giving Neo a selection between taking a blue pill or even a red pill. Take the blue pill and remain ignorant or take the red pill and find the clear answer to the matrix. Before he reaches for his pill of preference, Morpheus cautions Neo that will he choose the red pill, they can never return to the life span he had been living.
“A Course in Miracles” is the red pill. Do I read it and change everything I find out about the planet and myself or do I take the blue pill and make “A Course in Miracles” book fair fodder?
As I choke down the red pill, I flip to Lesson 1 of 365 in the workbook for students and promptly read, “Nothing I see in this room means anything “.Oh dear. Can it be too late to take the blue pill?